Flying with the Dove
& Her Loves

February 20, 2014

Crawlin' Everywhere!

 Grey is getting into everything and making it so hard to keep up with him! It is so fun to watch him discover new things though and get around on his own. I am scared about him starting to walk because it will be even harder but he is getting so big I can barely carry him in his car seat anymore! It would be nice to be able to have him just follow me around on foot instead.

Grey can't fall asleep without a huge pile of blankets. It is pretty dang sweet. He has also taken up a new hobby; fixing his car. He just wants to be like his Uncle Smith. He also seems to be training for something because he does hamstring stretches in the morning! 

This past week my BFF Lindsay came to visit and it was so much fun! Grey loves her so much as do I! We spent most days at the beach, eating great food, and shopping (what more could you ask for.. oh maybe some money for shopping ;) ). She even watched Grey so that Nate and I could go on a Valentines Date.

For Valentines, Nate and I went down to the Gaslamp Quarters for our first time and I LOVE it down there! Shopping and great food (again, what more could you ask for?) We ate at the Crab Hut because I am a sucker for some great crab and walked around until I realized that I had worn the wrong shoes. We decided to go to a movie and the only thing playing around that time was Endless Love. We bought the tickets and sat in the theater for a few minutes when I looked at Nate and said, "Think we can get a raincheck?" We refunded our tickets and changed my shoes for flip flops that were in the car and strolled around UTC mall buying small little trinkets for Valentine's. It was just so fun to get some time alone even though the entire time I missed Mr. Grey.

Nate and I are trying to make time for one date night a week, it is way harder than you would think.. But we made it out to National Comedy Theater downtown and watch some really great Improve and we ate at the Blue Water Seafood Market and Grill for some great fish tacos. We were stuck in traffic for what seemed like hours, but again it was just fun to be alone together.

Tonight we are going to go to the Surf Museum in Oceanside and dinner is to be decided. Can't wait!

 Waiting at the airport for Linds!

February 06, 2014

Crazy Crazy Life

Have I mentioned how much I love being a mom? Well just in case you didn’t get the memo… I do very much. This new role I have is all consuming, wonderful, and the hardest thing I have ever done. My mom asked me the other day, “What surprised you most about having a baby?” She thought I would say the lack of sleep or something to that manner but I was very aware of and informed about all of the hard adjustments I would have to make. The thing that surprised me the most was that I would actually SURVIVE these hard and new experiences. Not sleeping more than an hour at a time, lying awake in bed all night with just the anticipation of my baby crying, poop all over everything all the time, spit up on my clothes the second I got dressed, spending so much money that I didn’t have to spend, and through all of that, looking into my son’s eyes and honestly knowing that he is the best thing that has ever happened to me.

Your tiny little body in my arms
My soul weeps with unexplainable joy
The last nine month’s worth of fear, gone in this one moment.
How can something so small take so much of my heart?
And how did I become worthy of something so special?
Did you choose me? Did you want me for your mother?
I pray that you did, and that you were excited for your decision.
I think I picked you in Heaven.
They lined up the sweetest angels and I ran straight to you,
Squeezing you tightly and excitingly knowing that I would get to be your mom.
I worry about where the world will take you,
What kind of trials will break you down.
What things will pull us apart.
I will always be there to help you rebuild and help you to heal,
That is my promise to you.
I ask for your forgiveness in advance…
I know I will fail over and over again.
But I am going to try as hard as I can,
To make you feel loved, supported, safe.
I hope I can give you a beautiful life,
And that you will always be proud to call me MOM.