Flying with the Dove
& Her Loves

January 16, 2013

My First Doc Appointment - My little bean

I am now 13 weeks and I have been sooo antsy to see the doctor! I just wanted to be assured that everything looked ok and that my little bean was growing the way it's supposed to be. Its body is about 2 1/2 inches long from head to rump and he/she looks so dang cute! Everyone said I would freak out or it would feel really real when I heard the heartbeat. But I still can't really comprehend what that sound is. It doesn't seem real! It just sounded kind of scary to me! The thing that made me so excited and kind of made it seem real was seeing the little baby move around. He/she started out upside down in this little curled up ball and then stretched and bounced around and waved at us. I think this kid is going to be a hyper one!  This little creature is so darling and I just want it to be ready for me now! I told Nate that I still don't believe it is in my tummy. I just think the doctors are keeping the baby in the big ultrasound box until it is ready for us to take home. I know I will be sorely mistaken in 5 months when I am supposed to squeeze that thing out of me but I won't think about that yet!

The ultrasound lady (sorry I don't know the technical term) strongly believes this baby is a baby boy. We were able to make out a little something between the legs but it really is too soon to tell. That didn't necessarily stop my mom and I from going and buying a few boy things. Don't worry, we kept the receipt! BUt I feel like that little buggar that keeps making me sick and wears me out all day long, is a little dude... so help me find me cute boy stuff!
I love you my little bean (I guess you are really a peach by now) and I can hardly stand the fact that I have to wait 5-6 more months to see your beautiful face. Please be easy on me in the second trimester, I would love to actually keep my food in my tummy for a couple of months :). Sincerely, Mom

January 03, 2013

I am going to be a MOM!

 Today I am 11 weeks Pregnant. I found out on November 16th with a little faded blue line and then a few hours later with 4 different pregnancy tests. Let's just say I was a little anxious to find out!
Was it planned? Well not right NOW, but yes I was planning on trying for a little squirt in May. So yeah.... it is a little sooner than expected but we are SO EXCITED!

When we found out we thought it was only fair that we keep the secret until we were able to tell the In-laws face to face in New York... That would be Christmas. I AM SOOOO NOT A SECRET KEEPER... well, at least not when it is about myself! I had to keep this HUGE thing a secret for 6 WHOLE WEEKs and it just about killed me! I had 5 family parties within this time and it was torture!

The worst part of it was being SO SICK and not being able to ask for advice or help and trying to act like nothing was wrong. I am way too big of a baby to be able to look okay when I am sick. My mom made me dinner one night and she made this delicious turkey casserole thing and I took two bites and started feeling sick and couldn't take another bite, I just played with it for a little bit and then snuck it on to Nate's plate. I felt so terrible because she totally just thought I didn't like her food! I ALWAYS like her food!

LIES LIES LIES.... I told SO many LIES to keep this baby a secret. I went to Disneyland with my mom and sister and I couldn't ride any of the big rides so I had to keep making things up! I told them I got food poisoning the night before and that I probably couldn't handle any "big" rides that day. I just knew they would figure it out but they were oblivious!

NOW that the secret is out, I am really happy and have so much support around me. So THANK YOU for your support with this pregnancy! I just pray this baby is healthy and that it is prepared to have me as their mom.
See you on July 24th Baby!!!